Many of you know I have a tendancy to think to much. This thinking would send me in a downward spiral, and end up with a piercing pain somewhere in the region of my heart.

Yesterday, sitting on the train with my mp3 player in my ears I got that thinky head on. But this time there was no spiralling, no piercing pain- there were a few dull ache moments but very very brief.

It was all due to reading a few things that may have got me feeling upset in the past, but for some reason I just felt a kind of grim satisfaction. Realising somethings don't change and the truth is somethings I am definitely better off without.

So, no piercing pain but I did feel something else... it may sound strange but I could feel my heart in my chest. Not the physical beating one but the one that controls all my feelings, the one I thought at one point was irrepairably broken.

It felt whole. No sadness, no pain, it was just there, complete and fairly happy.

How things change :>>