Sometimes "what ifs" just hit you. I have many things that, at some point, I've wondered "what if" about, and one thing in particular at the moment. Sadly all seem to me that each of these things had the potential to make things great, if only for a while, but there is/was absolutely nothing I could do to change things.

It makes me wonder why life shows me these things, why I am teased in such a mean way.

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I am feeling a little weird at the moment. There is, and has been for days, lots of things I could write about. Some things sad, some things ranty, some things happy. I just don't want to. I don't really understand why!