I have been wondering if I was wrong to say bitch in an earlier post when I was writing at how upset I was at not being invited somewhere and having just seen all the pictures. I guess I can understand how it would offend someone. The thing is though, I thought these people knew me better than to think I would actually mean it. And to be honest I did have a reason for being really upset.
I am **not* going to feel guilty over it (well try not to
). I didn't actually do anything wrong. I don't know why I wasn't invited. I didn't do or say anything wrong before that either. I may not have spoken to some people for a while, but I was going through a really tough time then and didn't feel I could speak to anyone.
What bugs me the most is she has always been the one to say they never made much of an effort with me when we were all living together. That she'd try and keep in contact more. She never did. I never even gt included in many of her group emails.
So, here it is. This is me officially giving up. Why should I be made to feel bad for something I didn't do?
I refuse to. Thats it. I'm done being a doormat.
