Wednesday!

Do you ever think that you're where you thought you'd be but just standing in a different place? You'd be there rather than over here. Not that here is a bad place, just slightly different!

Anyhoo I am sooooo tired! I didn't sleep too great last night, and really need that time off! Not too long now though

Pole Dancing last night was ok, I was just far too tired to do things properly And almost fell off the pole, trying to invert from a climb The poles were all very slippy last night so that didn't help at all!! We learnt a new move called ivy It is very much like P1nkpr1ncess's Drama Queen but standing rather than sat on the pole and there's a lot of movement into it! Looks great, especially as it is at the end of the routine!

I managed to find the Sookie Stackhouse book I wanted, only to discover that it is book 6 and the one I have that I thought was book six was in fact book five

And I managed to drop my hat on the train this morning I loved that hat!!

I am so glad the assessment is over! I have to wait about 48 hours before I find out the results (and if I get a payrise )

I feel so much more relaxed than I did this morning Extremely tired though I am looking forward to this weekend where I will be able to relax I doubt I'll do much as D is working nights this week, but I think its the type of weekend I really need right now!

And with any luck in less than 2 weeks I shall have a wonderful 2 weeks off with not much planned (then 2 weeks back at work then another 2 weeks off over christmas ) I really need the break!!

Only 3 more days to get through til the weekend

Last night was another one full of strange dreams! Including ones about my assessment which is today!!

I have just under 2 hours until it starts. Hopefully I will be ok! At least it will be all over by lunch and I will be able to engoy Pole Dancing tonight!

I even have a bit of work to do this afternoon and a few things I need to go and buy in between work and pole dancing (one of which I hope I can get! Its Sookie Stackhouse book number 5 )

I am currently listening to Alisha's Attic! Little sis had them on in the car on Saturday and I had forgotten how much I liked them so decided I needed a copy of their album

Anyhoo I guess I should go and do some last minute revision

I had the strangest dream last night. Actually it was at some point this morning after I had woken and decided that it wasn't too long until I had to get up. I always seem to have strange at that time!

Anyway in this dream someone (possibly D) had shaved their head and for some bizarre reason I decided to shave mine too! Only the clippers were very small and very crap and didn't work properly. I actually changed my mind half way through and ended up with short hair!

Very strange! Especially as I had a hair cut saturday, with 3 colours put in I have stripey hair now

The weekend was a good one. I spent it with D round my parents Saturday I had my hair done and we all went to dinner for little sis's 21st

Sunday saw E and I along with 4 of our 5 guides at the Remembrance Service in the village. (D came along too). I love the fact our village has this service. I always find it incredible sad. We have a fair few veterans in the village who come along, and there are 29 names read out of people who died in the 2 world wars from the village. We had our company colours paraded and as we only have a few girls the scout company paraded our union flag as is tradition for Remembrance Parade. My girls laid the crosses for those named, and did really well considering there were only 4 of them! Hopefully next year I can coordinate with the Brownies and the Rainbows and have more represenation from the Guide Company. I know the Rainbow leader is keen as she is the mum of one of my Guides, so we were discussing it before the service.

And so now I am back at work. My assessment is tomorrow so today will be preparing for that, listening to Alisha's Attic on my iPod

Oh and Happy Birthday to P1nkPr1ncess! Hope you have a good day and get to have a go on the pole x

I had a few things to say this morning, you know the kind of thing that occurs to you as you travel to work... annoyances, thoughts, bruises on thighs that I haven't had since learning the pole sit but loving learning new pole moves despite the drawbacks etc.

I logged in today and read a few blogs and decided most of the things I write are fairly boring in comparison to a lot of people! Some have so much life experience that I sit here and feel so naive despite the fact I will be turning 30 next year (very scary thought ). It rather kills of any desire to write about mundane things really

Anyway my little sis is 21 today Happy Birthday E!!

I have her a present which I hope she likes

And I get my hair done tomorrow I am having 3 colours put in! I am hoping it will look nice

My future brother in law has decided.... since I am into robots and things, and D is a policeman, any baby we have together will be Robocop!!

I have been reading a series of books recently that are becoming more and more addictive! The first is called Dead Until Dark by Charlaine Harris. If anyone has seen the series True Blood, this book is what the first series is based on. Currently there are 9 books and I have just finished book 3!

To say the books are better than the TV series is an understatement! D said to me that by the end of the TV series he didn't see the point in it! The point of the book is murder and finding the murderer. In the TV series there was a lot of added stuff that made no sense and served no purpose!

Anyhoo I am looking forward to starting Book 4 It took me 3 days to read the last one It would have been less but I had to go to work, pole dancing, sleep, Guides etc

The great thing is, they've all been on offer in waterstones! 3 for 2 Although on Monday they only had books 3. 4 and 6 so I will have to find book 5 from somewhere

I am feeling a little lost without it to read at lunch today! I will definitely have to make sure I pick up and bring in the next one tomorrow

Speaking of Vampiric things, one of my guides last night, decided to ask everybody where Vampires came from! I wonder if anyone can answer that

I logged into Blog today to find an invite message...

"Need to be ma friend"

Err I don't think so!! The deny button was clicked rather quickly

So tonight might be rather busy! I want to go and watch the fireworks in Basildon today but I really need to find little sis's birthday present!! Its her birthday tomorrow and although I won't see her til Saturday, I have Pole Addict tomorrow so shopping tonight is the only option! We also have next to no food in the house so some sort of food shopping is required!

And a handbag!! I still haven't replaced my bag that broke last week so I need to find some sort of replacement as the one I am using is far too small!!

Anyhoo I sent my facebook message last night Not heard anything yet but I have just realised November is fully booked!!!

And this time in 2 weeks I shall be excitedly preparing for Manchester (even though I would have 3 days before leaving ) and anticipating the lovely Nandos I am owed!!

I decided I will stay in Manchester from the Sunday to the Tuesday. I will wander around on the Monday and maybe do some Christmas shopping too I will just be starting 2 weeks off with any luck so it will be nice and relaxed D will be working so I may well find something nice to buy him for Christmas!

Speaking of Christmas I currently have no clue what to buy most people!! Little Sis and Baby sis are sorted but no one else!! Arrgghh!! Need to buy for big sis and her family in America!!

But I suppose I should really get to work

an injury to my leg!! It hurts rather a lot

Actually to tell the truth its just a bruise, on my claf where we were doing the inside fallen angel last night (like the outside one I did last week but with the other leg!) Its actually harder because you really need to bend the leg to get the pole in the crook of the knee! I almost managed to do it which is great

We also did inverting from a climb (so we climbed the pole and then went into the upside down crucifix) I can do that fine We then did 3 handstands in a row which I struggled with a little (after getting it right the first time bizarrely) which was all to do with the position of my hands! I will be fine with it as I know what I was doing wrong! We also did a rather strange spinny thing to come out of the invert... we positioned ourself as if we had just swung into the invert (holding the pole with the left hand) and pushed the floor with the right so we were spinning! It was all a bit confusing trying to figure out which way to push! Things don't always make much sense when you are upside down

I am looking forward to next week There's not much left of the routine to learn but it will look great once I can do it properly!!

I just need to find a copy of AC/DC's Shook me All Night Long, which I can only find tribute bands covers of on iTunes!!

I have been in work about 15 minutes already!!

Its waaaay too early especially after I didn't sleep to well last night!!

I blame the earlyness and the sleep problems for the dropping problems I experienced in the cafe this morning Luckily my phone still works!!

I found this story on the BBC website and thought it really interesting! I am pretty sure there are plenty of words out there that are regional which won't have any meaning to anyone who doesn't live there... (Anyone remember MMT's intense Scouse?? ). I find it all fascinating

Why is it that places never sell exactly what you want?? I decided a while ago that the nicest thing for lunch would be a Chicken Tikka baguette from the cafe downstairs. I had one the other week and it was lovely!!

While they have the Tikka baguettes, the only baguette they made it with is the one with bits in it (you know the wholegrain thingys?) I don't really like them and would have much preferred for it to be a white baguette!!

But standing there feeling slightly lightheaded for some reason I decided to just grab what they have and return! It beats standing in a chilling restaurant feeling strange, waiting around for something else you really don't fancy

On no not again!! Seriously, I don't know whats happened to my life recently

Actually, apart from the train being late, it being very wet out, the tubes being crowded, having to let a couple of tubes go passed before being able to board, one tube getting stuck because of a passenger alarm, dropping my stuff everywhere, the sunroof of D's car leaking on my head, not getting back to sleep for about an hour after D left at 4.15am this morning, My pole dancing shorts not being dry, work clothes not being properly dry and work clothes getting even wetter in the rain, its not been too bad

On the up side, the sunroof hadn't leaked until it dripped on my head so no wet seat (this is shocking because its been very leaky lately), and its pole dancing tonight

Right, down to some reading up ready for my assessment next week!!

I think everything is conspiring against me today! The world wants to irritate me and its succeeding! The number one source of irritation is the incredibly slow connection I have to the internet today!!

The second one is the lack of info I have for my assignment! It will be fine but I feel like there are a few small details that are absent!

Thirdly my poppy is crushed already!

Fourth my soup was far too peppery yet again! It would have been lovely if it wasn't for that!

I am sure there are so many more though, leaving me with the feeling I just want to crawl out of my own skin! What a lovely picture

You can tell its going to be one of those days when 1. you just miss a train, and 2. you forget to bring your work pass with you!

In my defense though the train was a slightly earlier one than I usually get, although it did mean spending 10 minutes standing on a freezing cold platfom! As for forgetting my pass, its not entirely my fault for being forgetful! My bag broke on Friday, while wandering around near Charing Cross station! I don't mean completely split but the strap broke making the use of the bag impossible!! The only bag I have for use at the moment is a small black going out one!! Its not really big enough to hold every day stuff and nor is it compartmentalised! My old bag, I had one zipped bit for purse phone, ipod, keys, my pass was kept in a separated zipped part and my oyster card and train ticket in a third compartment! This meant I knew where everything was when I needed it! It was onlky natural for me to forget to look in one of these compartments when transferring everything to the little bag! Not that it would have fitted in anyway!!

So now I am at work, having had to sign in (although they didn't really ask for proof that I work here which I find quite worrying to be honest!) and I will have to get the security guard downstairs to let me in and out!

This week I have to somehow apply myself and get an assignment done and sent off by Thursday at 9am, and revise for my assessment which is next Tuesday morning! With any luck though, in 2 weeks I should be entitled to a pay rise

With much study and revision to do this week, I have one bright shining moment to look forward to... little sis is 21 on Friday We are going out to dinner on Saturday to celebrate, and I also have a hair appointment on Saturday I am having Foils (Three colours!!) and a cut and blow dry I am really looking forward to it as I haven't had my hair done in ages

Well I guess I really should get down to things and work

I had one of those nights last night where I woke up and the harder I tried to sleep the more I was awake!

Anyway, during the awakeness I got to thinking... First thoughts were about Pole Dancing and my need to practice! Next I remembered the pole is covered is something and needs a clean! So from there I had the thought that I need vodka to clean it (the Tesco value stuff, apparently its brilliant at cleaning poles!)

I moved on to remembering once having a full bottle of vodka taking it with me when I went to stay with someone, where I promptly forgot to bring back an almost full bottle, whereby his housemate drank it and I never got a replacement! And It was the good stuff! So that naturally lead me to thinking of playing a drinking game with this person, drinking white chocolate vodka shots, then waiting in the cab for him for ages while he did his hair! I swear it was 10 minutes or so! We headed into town from there. I remember walking down some steps into a bar, as I reached the bottom, my heel caught the edge of the step and I fell hard on my knees! My companion hadn't noticed a thing and was practically at the bar by this time! Men!!!

I am sure there were more but I did eventually get back to sleep so I have forgotten them

so they were the weird randomly linked thoughts I had while trying unsuccessfully to sleep

I am in one of those moods today where I feel like I have been inflicting myself and my opinions and my problems on everyone. I have sat and thought about, even trying to start writing this blog so many times each deciding against it because I am being too moany, that no one really wants to hear it (i doubt I would want to either ).

So I make the decision... no more emails, no more comments....

Why is it the minute you decide that, it becomes the hardest thing in the world to do??

Don't mind me, I am probably just hormonal or something

Browsing the BBC I came across this article! It made me laugh and it shows... blogging can make a difference

I have been researching stuff today...

In a few weeks I am heading to Manchester (hopefully) to watch J in her Pole Divas final

I have been wondering how to get there....Mini won't make it, Mum and Dad will both be working when I am heading back, so I can't borrow one of their cars, and D will be working so will probably need his car!

So I looked up trains. It takes just over 2 hours to get there, direct from Euston and I can get tickets for £37!! Thats both ways! Of course they are advance tickets, non refundable non transferable can only use that train kind of tickets but still its cheap!!

Need to book a hotel still and decide what time train to get though D's on earlies I think so I could potenially be there around 10 am!! Potentially...

Inspired by P1nkpr1ncess last night, knowing what great abs she must have (jealous much ) I am launching operation "abs of steel"!!! I have decided to do as many sit ups as possible (last night I think was 55 with the aide of the pole... sitting on the floor, legs in a hang back position then doing sit ups). I also plan to do a few eagle exercises One is on the floor where you lie on your back raise your legs til they are over your head open them into a V hold for a bit close and lower slowly! Also a few pole pull ups as if I am heading into the eagle

I showed D the spinning eagle last night, he was very impressed I was quite pleased because I wasn't sure I was getting into the eagle enough but he said I had my legs at a little bit of an angle but not too much! Go me!!

I am quite surprised... I thought my stomach would ache a little with all those sit ups and the quite a few spinning eagles I did but so far I am ok!