Wednesday!

I am going to sit here for a little while and drink coffee while eating maltesers A nice afternoon sugar boost

In 2 hours I shall be able to leave, I'll pick the car up, go to Asda for a few things (with any luck this will include sweets for my sweet craving ) get home, play on wii fit and try and beat some of D's high scores (I think they should have a Wii Pole, think I'd be quite good ) Have dinner, watch tv and sleep maybe, before having to pick up his Lordship...

Tomorrow will most likely be similar, but without the working or Asda trip, and hopefully include pole practice

Feeling a leetle bored now though, wishing the end of the day would hurry up and arrive!

I made a bit of a mistake on the way to work this morning. Sitting on the train, I decided to close my eyes instead of reading, and relax. The result was that when I got to my station it was rather hard to open them and leave the train! I was feeling rather sleepy as I got off!

Stangely enough though, I seemed to have an energy spike as I got into work, feeling a bit hyper and lightheaded. I am now back on the sleepy path Maybe I need I sugar hit?! I wish I had some of those sweets I've been craving for weeks

Oh well, not long till lunch

I had an absolutely lovely walk over Blackfriars bridge this morning! It was already hot by the time I got to the train station but a nice temperature... the kind you'd feel sitting in the wind by the sea, lovely! I am now sat in my office however, wishing I could be on a beach somewhere I can't even head that way this weekend as D is working

I made a comment on facebook last night, about how I was trying to cool down, lying on my bed with the fan blasting at me. Big Sis decided I was exagerating! But no, it is hot! I know its not quite mediterranean hot but it is soooo much hotter here than we are used to! I have also noticed people complaining about the "sensible" advice about drinking water and staying out of the hot sun etc.... I know most of us are sensible but don't they realise that people can be that stupid?!

Lst night I did an "American" theme for my guides... they cooked sausages on BBQs which went really well, they learnt an "American" dance (ok it was Miley Cyrus's Hoedown Throwdown but it was still country music) they played "American States" Hangman, ate American Muffins, cookies and Doritos, and made up a small display It was good, but such a shame I only have 3 girls now I have an article coming out in the parish newsletter on Friday so hopefully we will get some interest from this

Anyhoo my cctv camera is still playing up, which is annoying, I am feeling very strangely light headed, I have just eaten a chewee bar that decided to tell me a "woweee fact" (It would take 150 years to drive to the sun if you could) and I really suppose I should get to work

I am feeling a little bored at the moment. Being back in the office after being out on site is a bit of a let down and you never really want to get back into other owrk!

I have also been trying to view a juntion on the cctv, but for some reason my panel won't connect. I know the camera is working, I know my panel is working but for some reason they won't work together!

I have also tried using the next nearest cctv camera but someone seems to be using it to look at cars that are illegaly using a bus lane (albeit for a very short length of time so they can sit in the flared lane for a left turn) They also seem to keep zooming in on a very uninteresing spot on the tarmac!

Ho Hum only an hour before I can go home

Its baking outside! Even more so now I think than when I left at 11.30 and even more so than when I was stood down the road from Tower Bridge at 12.15-1.15! I may have got a little burnt though! I think I was quite lucky. I had a little shade to stand in, there was a nice breeze and the hour went quickly. I've now just got back in the office and have a little while before I need to work again as I'm having lunch

I can't say I have been as glad to get back in the office than I was just now! I stopped off at Waterloo to get some lunch, and walked back to the office in Southwark. The heat was oppresive and the office invitingly cool!

I shall now relax with my baguette and cold water after a sizeable chunk of my day has been used up, knowing its not too long til I can leave

It feels like this week has been busy and long already! There was pole dancing after work on Monday, meaning it was gone 10pm by the time i was home, working late yesterday, so I got home around 8.30 and tonight is Guide night. I will get to go home and have dinner before I go but its not really enough time to relax! I haven't really slept so great this week either, so its not really surprising I am tired out

Thursday evening, however, should be a nice relaxing one, and Friday evening I shall be in on my own as D is on late shifts from then for a few days I shall make the most of it I think, maybe I shall watch Twilight? I may save that for Saturday evening though... I will have to make sure my pole gets put up so I can practice over the weekend

Its feeling much cooler and relaxed today for some reason! Its nice and cloudy out, this is a good thing as I am supposed to be helping a colleague on site around lunchtime!

I was quite surprised I didn't get burnt last night whilst out working! The junction I had to look at was in the shade so lovely and cool And like I said, once I got out there it went quite quickly! It was also right next to the train station so very easy for getting home!

I really wanted some toast for breakfast this morning There's not enough time between me getting up and needing to leave to make some and I didn't really want to wait around in the canteen to use their toaster... it looks like a very strange toaster too Why can't they just put a little one in the kitchen and let me bring my own bread?! Probably some jumped up health and safety reason

I found this yesterday, and thought my dad, who has always wanted an Aston Martin, might like it?! I think its more my size though

An hour to go before I head out on site to count cars. Oh yes I will be having that much fun... I am really not looking forward to it, the work has to be carried out between 6 and 7pm because thats "peak period". And its at Tower Hill. One very busy area! At least I'll have Tower Bridge to look at Its also quite close to the train station too, good for when I want to escape

What with pole dancing yesterday evening, this toningt, Guides tomorrow night, I reckon I am just going to collapse on the sofa this weekend and not move at all.... bad because I want to practice my routine

I hope 7pm hurries up and arrives I don't really feel so great but its a bit late to back out now!

I feel full now I just had a nice turkeu baguette from the canteen downstairs

In an effort to stave off the tiredness I have had a mars bar and am drinking coke I have to stay awake though, I agreed to work late tonight I will be getting a massive 2 hours toil.... wooo... Hmmm

Anyhoo I guess I really should get back to work.. or lunch or something

I think the hot weather isn't really doing me any good I don't want to complain about it, its great, or it would be if I could be outside enjoying it but yesterday afternoon I just felt awful, not good when I had a pole dancing lesson! The heat just seemed to make the atmosphere heavy and oppresive. Although I am sure it would be lovely to sit out by the river or the sea side.... hmmmmm have I mentioned I need a holiday?!

I am sure I could think of lots I wanted to write about but my energy seems to have been sapped away. I seem to be able to do nothing but sit and stare at one of my junctions on the cctv camera

I suppose I really should try to work...

I need chocolate.... get a bit of a sugar rush to see if that will banish the tiredness!!

Actually what I really fancy is thick small cuts of those apple flavoured liquorice wand thingys! I've felt like some for weeks and nothing seems to be a suitable substitute

Hmmm I don't have anything chocolatey or sugary though Maybe I'll just try the coffee again

Weekends never seem long enough do they? I did absolutely nothing Saturday (Being majorly tired after a late night Friday, and being woken at 5am Saturday morning as D was taking his mate to the airport). We did nothing much but watch TV, play the Wii and watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (I can't believe I hadn't seen it before then!) Yesterday my Mum and Dad had a barbecue to celebrate their Anniversary (which is today, 35 years!). There was soooo much food It was nice though, we all just sat in the garden all afternoon relaxing

But suddenly the weekends over, here I am back at work, feeling tired and headachey, wanting nothing more than to be sleeping. I have a coffee but the thought of it is churning my stomach a little (although the taste is ok, how weird is that?!).

I really do need to sort my passport out so we can go on holiday sometime (Will probably be September) maybe I can get a cheap weekend away somewhere in the meantime?!

I'm tired again. I am feeling far too emotional at the moment as well. I have had a fair few things that I really didn't need in the last few days... annoyances, arguments, worry, the aftermath of the worry...

I didn't really sleep that great last night either. And i have to go out tonight. I can't say I really want to but I have to! Maybe it will be best if no alcohol is consumed... when I am feeling low it just makes it worse.

I would prefer to spend it alone curled up with a dvd for company I think.

So I did go out last night. We went to China Town and wandered back to Embankment Tube station by a rounabout route with D telling his American friend weird and wonderful facts (Like the nose on Admiralty Arch, and Nelson overlooking his fleet).

I also managed to keep my tights whole!

But

I ended up waiting 3 hours on my own in London for them to arrive. In that time I could have gone back to his, showered, washed my hair, beautified etc, and been back at the same time that they were. I was not really amused! I felt so tired, grubby, hot and generally bleaugh (not to mention the fact I had been lugging around my stuff, I had come from home because of Guides so I had a few necessities I had to bring) by the time they got there I was rather glad we didn't do much except eat and wander! I was very annoyed, I felt so messed around, at 4pm D was heading home to meet his mate so I thought I'd have to wait about an hour at the most but they didn't get a train back into London until 6.50! It was so hot and sunny I am really surprised i didn't get sunburnt!

Next time D is going to have to arrange the timing better so if they are meeting me from work they meet straight me after work!

It really is one of those days today.

Who wants to take bets that I ladder my new pairs of tights before I go out tonight? Providing I go that is.

Its typical, I get dressed today, consious of the fact I am heading straight out after work for dinner. I have on a nice dress and a decent pair of tights nevermind they were supposed to be hold ups I put them on and manage to poke a hole in them towards the top... ok not so bad its just a hole. I get downstairs and the hole has spread, into a ladder downwards! Usually they go up! Since then I have managed to develop two more long ladders!

Stupid Nail!! At lunch I think I shall head to Boots to try and get a nail file and maybe a new pair of tights else I will be looking like I have been dragged through a hedge... not a good look when I am meeting one of D's American friends for the first time

Its not funny anymore. I still keep feeling really really tired, and for the last couple of days I've felt a bit sick after lunch, as if I've eaten a lot but I haven't (I had soup today with some bread and some sweets, the soup bowl was about half the size of a normal bowl so hardly a lot!) I've even struggled with the thought of coffee this afternoon I have some now though!

Hmmm maybe I need to pin D down, get my passport sorted and get our holiday booked! I think I really need it!

I got into work this morning and went to the canteen to order my usual medium latte and came away with a massimo one for the same price! They had run out of the medium cups so were using the large ones!

Maybe it will help with the tiredness I feel yet again

It seems rather cold here at work. They never seem to be able to sort the airconditioning out to a suitable temperature! Its either too hot or too cold. Not problems they should be having considering this building isn't that old!!

I suppose I really should get to work

Ooh my phone headphones fit my iPod Yay! No day without music after all

They are the strange earbud thingys that keep falling out but are better than nothing Actually, if they didn't keep falling out they'd probably be better than the usual headphones

I am a little bit irritated today. I managed to leave my iPod headphones at home! Maybe I'll just have to play the paper flicky game instead of listening to music

I have also been in weork for about half an hour already! Shocking! I was on the train by 7.05 and actually got in around 10 past 8 but had to wait ages for my coffee

I have had the weirdest dreams for the last couple of nights. Last night my dreams were invaded my Star Trek people, I can't quite remember what it was about but I know it was all down to me watching Star Trek Nemesis last night! Actually I should say seeing it because its hard to watch something properly when you have the buzz of a shredder going off every 2 minutes

The night before last produced weird dreams too. I remember it was set in olden days. I am tempted to say American Civil war days but I am pretty sure it was based in England! Anyhoo I was wearing a long old style dress and in what I can only describe as a pub garden. I was there with D and we were kissing and cuddling and enjoying ourselves. Only he was the one I wanted to be with but the man I was getting married to was inside (I think). I mentioned something to D I can't remember what it was about, some sort of arrangement of furnature or some such thing and he decided that it was of strategic importance to an impenidng battle and hurried indoors. I got annoyed and upset and left the pub alone. The streets were deserted, because of the battle that was approaching which I knew and I headed off wandering the streets knowing I'd probably head into the opposition and wondering if he'd come after me!

Thats all I remember now I have the strangest dreams at times!

I am feeling a bit weird at the moment! For the last couple of days I have felt extremely tired! Not the kind of tired you get from a slight restless night or just feeling out of sorts! I even had quite a decent nights sleep last night.

BI can feel it in my face, I feel like me eyes have become a little sunken and I have dark cirles under them! (well the circles are there but not as badly as it feels).

I've had 2 very not helpful suggestions as to what it can be.... the return of piggy flu (from soon to be brother in law) not that I had piggy flu in the first place, and from big sis the suggestion that I may have joined little sis's pregnant club Neither is helpful, right or even that funny!

I think I just need 2 weeks lying by a pool in a nice hot sunny place